My church has started the Daniel Fast for 21 days. It's been a long time since I have committed myself to something. Yesterday I was wanting to eat just because. And my emotions were all over the place. I've been eating fruit and veggies. But my brain wanted pizza, chicken, and sweets. I'm my normal life, I eat for emotional reasons regardless if I'm hungry or not. This new thing is scary for me. Being closer to God is something that I want and having to sacrifice or give up something for that, I had a problem. The headaches started and this is a lot. I didn't give in. NOPE, not one bit. I'm happy that today, I was good. It's day 3. The first day, I will admit- I ordered a pizza and had potato chips. Why because I wanted to rebel and because of that my stomach handed to me. The next which was day 2, I ate 1 slice of that pizza. My head was on fire after church and my stomach was rumbling.
Realizing that it not about the fleshly things but rather than spiritual things, I'm learning to adjust to it. Asking for help is hard to do. Being disciplined and sticking to something other than a job is hard. I can't remember the last time that I was actually consistent with something. One time I started a boot camp exercise program, I was so fearful of going but my inner thoughts, I would only a few times here and there. There is more. Commitment scares me. That is probably why I am having a hard time with this at the moment.
