Another laid off

so I have been laid off once again. I believe that this is the second layoff in about 4 1/2 or five years. So I'm trying to figure out the next step. I am so tired of being in Behavior Health it has sucked my soul out and I'm just tired of being strictly unhappy for such a long time. I know I need a job but I've been a little particular about what I want instead of just going because I am desperate. I have no motivation right now I feel like blah at the moment. Most of my coworkers have found their jobs already and will be starting soon and a part of me feel like I'm left out and the other part of me is like girl you killed it last week by yourself why everybody else was out doing interviews at work you were making sure that everybody was doing what they need to do as far as the clients on the aftercare plans etc. And a part of me has a little bit of resentment because I felt like I needed to be the one that was president in the moment it consistent and the other part of me is like girl shut up and just do what you need to do that was your job. And I'm just on this road right now of uncertainty and a little scared at the moment. I had to just pay about $500 for my car to get that fixed. Then I had a flat tire the week after I didn't have any to get three new tires plus an alignment put that on a credit card that I just paid off. Then as of this past weekend I had to get the alignment corrected because my car started doing weird stuff. I went almost a week without a car at one point and I was grateful to have my coworkers take me to and from work and it probably only use a rideshare maybe three times. I'm just so weird right now and asking for help it's always been hard for me strictly hard for me and it makes me feel weak and lost undisciplined. So right now I'm trying to look for a job I mean it's just me I have nobody else and that's just life at the moment. So if I end up back and behavior health which I don't want to hear be very brief I won't let it stay long. It won't drowned me because it's just a job and I can get unemployment as well but that's not gonna be a lot only because it's low and unfortunately living in a state and I mean we don't get the extra $600 that you know the other State was giving. And hopefully I get help with my rent and my electricity and my car.