Revenge of the Dollar Tree Staff

So a couple of weeks ago I was at the Dollar Tree, or what the you tubers says the "DT". I was getting some things for my planner and some food items. I really like their milk, because its cheap and I can store it unopened in my cabinet and not feel guilty about wasting food.
 Anyways I was ready to check out. The line was long and their was only one cashier. The other two employees were no where to be found. It was finally my turn to checkout. The cashier seemed irritated and upset, she then left the register. Here I am standing there think what the hell is going on? Did something ring up wrong? I mean come on everything is a dollar, its the freaking dollar tree. When she came back to the register she said," I am tired of this shit, they keep leaving me on the floor by myself." Next thing I know the lady had a blank sheet of paper, she said," I am putting in my two weeks, right now. They think I am playing, Im not.". Back to me I didn't know whether to laugh or feel sorry for the woman. All of a sudden her manager opens up a lane.

 Its Christmas time, people need their jobs , right. So I think. But what about the people who work so little to nothing only to be treated in a unfair manner. As I left the store I wondered if she was really going to do it. I have been back yet to find out. In the words of my mother " The people is tired."

Panic attacks episode1

Tuesday, I had a panic attack. I couldn't breathe,I couldn't think, I couldn't catch on. The stress of doing what is right versus what is wrong. I am constantly silence,but when I speak up, I get bullied.

Today I feel like myself finally. Had a great counseling session last night. She repeated to me" it's not permanent. " I was finally able to sleep last night but at 2am. I repeated that phase to help me sleep, mind body and spirit.
It's Christmas season,I have so much to be grateful for.

Still unimpressed and pissed

This past week and present has been very hard, very stressful. From eye twitching to stomach pain. It's has been a long time since I've been under this much stress. I had panic attacks that lasted for about an hour then the aftermath was horrible. I'm need a change.

Unimpressed and pissed

I normally don't get mad. But after what day I had yesterday it was hell. All the things that I have been through this yeah came back to with full force.

Luckily I have friends who keep me from snap crackle and pop on a person.

Daddy's birthday

This past weekend , my father celebrated his 48th Birthday. Since I couldn't be with him. We video chatted. It was great to talk to him. With technology the way it is, there be no excuse why any parent shouldn't be involved with their children.

We have been blessed with this gift to communicate with others, more of the time it is abuse.

Reality vs Dreams.

I often wonder about what my dreams were as a child. I really didn't have any. Like any kid would say, " i want to be a doctor, or I want to be a lawyer." Or I want to get married and have children. As a child I honestly really didn't think about that. I was wondering if the bills would be paid and if the lights were going to be on when I got home from school. We never went hungry, but the stress said enough.

Now when I look back, I see things as they are. I know do dream. But can they really can true. Can you actually be able to live out your dream. Can you really have it all? As I sit here writing this, I question that. As hard as life is, the struggle to get to a better place is hard. No on said it was going to easy, be no one never said it was going to hard.

When I left the Midwest to venture out on my own, I knew it was going to be hard. All the plans that I did have for my life such as finding a career, find love, find friends and keep growing, has been hard. I am working a dead end job with no room to move up at all, unless I brown nose my way to the top. No love life cause I have never had one at all, I think no one wants me, or maybe I am meant to be alone. Well one thing I was able to do was connect with the human race, since I was in, what I would call hibernation, I was able to make friends. They actually like me.

I am still learning.