From Oct 17
It's 2:37am - My mind is racing from the case of the what it is
Lately, my life has been overcomplicated with every problem known that could into my mind. Paying bills, possible rent going up, career decisions and life decisions.
It's now 3:20am-There's nothing on Tv, Watching old 80 sitcoms "Designing Women" and trying to fall asleep. Chanting to myself," It's OK. It's OK".
It's now 4:15am- I need to get up at 5:45am. I notice tears down my face, holding onto the notion of wanting sleep and pray.
It's 5:45am- Slept a while. It's raining outside. Dark and wet. Slowly rasing up. My hormones and anxiety are peaking up. I'm sad, tearful, despair, and irritable. I have to drive to work. 1-hour commute. I'm all spent out but having to myself to others.
I need a pillow and a hug.
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