I write this post today to get better. Lately, my anxiety and my hormones has been through this crazy hail storm. Suffering from fibroids has been hell. Living in pain and shame. Trying to control it but can't. My mood swings are dangerous. One day im in pain wanting to cry then the next im manic obsessing over every little detail and crazy. Crying at my desk and feeling worthless. The heaviness of the bleeding and constant checking for leaks and hiding myself more and more.
Its makes me feel alone and nasty. No one I think understands.
I got diagnosis when I was 26. Then it wasn't that bad. I could handle the pain. Slowly its eats away from my confidence.
I want kids --I think-- here I am 33. I always wondered who would want me knowing thats its a possibility that I may not able to. I'll put that in God's hands.
God really doesn't give you anything that you can't bear. Im always surprise by my strength each month. Knowing that I will be ok but also know my time with God during that time of the month has been bringing me closer to him.
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